This is my journey.

One Sweet Love

You think you know everything,

But then you find out that you didn’t really know as much as you’d originally thought.

That’s generally what happens as you learn new things. 

I thought that I knew love. I thought that I knew EXACTLY what to expect.

And I couldn’t be more elated about being wrong.

I knew nothing about love.

What I found was that it was absolutely nothing like I expected.

It’s even better.

And yes, most days it’s a challenge, but it’s one that molds me and forms me into a better person. That’s what loving someone like you does to me.

It’s bliss, really.

Every moment that we spend together, although seemingly insignificant, is momumental.

We are growing together more and more with each passing day. We are sewing ourselves tighter and tighter to each other forming a bond that feels unbreakable.

I couldn’t be any happier with any other human being on the planet. All of the memories that we’ve made, and all the plans that we have are irreplaceable.

This is one sweet love.

And the moral of the story is…

Change is inevitable.

It’s approaching quickly. The end of another chapter and the beginning of a new one. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I’m sure that it will be wonderful. How could it be anything less with you by my side?

I’m so inexplicably happy to be with you. To be yours. To be us.

There is so much that we haven’t done, so many adventures to take. And I’m ready.

I love you.

Hopelessly.
Selflessly.
Endlessly.
Beautifully.
Doubtlessly.

You are so wonderful, compassionate, caring.

Your eyes are so kind and gentle.

I love being with you, and I’ll stand by you.

I know you. I love knowing you.

Your fun and my heart leaps with joy when I see you smile.

When I’m with you, I feel more me. More at peace. At home.

I can’t imagine my life with you in it.

You are my best friend, my lover, my confidant, my companion, my support, and my family.

I know things aren’t easy and they never will be because people are people. But I love you with ever part of me and I know that what we have is real.

I never thought it was possible to be loved so much by another human being.

Though loving you, I understand so much. I’m learning how to love me. And how to love others.

I never, ever expected this to happen, but I’m so glad it did.

“You can’t go looking for love because you won’t find it. It finds you.”

You spoke these words to me in a time of hurt and confusion. I didn’t know what I was doing, who I was or what I wanted. I didn’t know it then, but you were the love that found me. I’ll cherish those words forever.

Jen, I love you. I know it’s hard. I’m stubborn and I have a lot of hurt and baggage that haunts me. But I promise you that I’ll love you with a furious love my whole life. I’ll make mistakes, but I’ll never fail to admit when I’m wrong. I’ll tell you everything there is to know and I’ll be whatever you need me to be.

I know that I can expect the same. You are so wonderful. So good to me. And I am completely undeserving. You are so humble and generous. I’m lucky to be yours.

God,

We need you. I need you. My family needs you. Please help your broken, fallen, hurting people. Show us our burning need for you. Live, breath, speak into us. We are desperate for you, God. Nothing will ever change without you. We need you for everything. Nothing that we have belongs to us, it’s all yours. Show us your soverignty and take us back. Nothing else will do. All these longings that are pinned up inside screaming for release are the longings to be loved by you. Show us how to receive your love, God. Without the ability to receive it, we will never truly know it.

Let everything that

has breathe praise the Lord.

I DON’T WANNA READ THESE STUDIES FOR SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY.

I think I’ll do well on the exam. :)

I love that class…. Minus the 12 page research paper due in a month and a half.

I GET TO SEE LAUR ON SATURDAY. Totally, undeniably STOKED.

Uhh, in other news the pups are 5 weeks old today! Yeah!

If there’s a specific pretty lady reading this, I love you.

Convocation in a week. I don’t even.

I really love the weather right now.

I wanna lose 25 pounds by Christmas, then 21more by my 21st birthday. Which would put me at 142.8, perfect if I was slightly muscular. Good Lord, I’d be hot stuff.

I wanna get back into reading things, singing often, and being with more people that I love. I need some good friends. People I can trust.

The future is murky, but I got you babe.

4 week trip for 8 credit hours in intermediate Spanish (Chile/Argentina), or 11 day trip for 7 various hours between Psych and Global perspectives (Austria/Germany/Switzerland). Good Lord, I don’t know which to choose. But I’d surely miss you for a month. Ugh.

So many things going on in life. :) I love it.

5 AM….

Turn the radio up beacause I love when it’s all too much.

Guess this is going to be what time I wake up for the rest of my life. Good golly, Ms. Molly.

So, we didn’t really work out. We just took the dogs for a walk, but I still feel good that we actually got up. That’s a start.

…Even though it was 5:40 when we left the house. :)

I’m slightly optimistic about it all. I know that I can do this.

I want this lifestyle. Fit. In control. Healthy. Making excellent decisions.

Thanks for making me coffee, Jen.